Hello All,
9 days to go, including today, till I get on the flight headed for Chicago, then Brussels, then Entebbe UG. Honestly I have mixed emotions, I am nervous excited, scared, at ease, and some other undefined emotions. One thing I really have going on my side is self- awareness! So far many lovely people have given toward my trip, financially, with gifts, or prayers and words of encouragement. I am so thankful for all of these people. It lets me know that God is pleased with what I am doing. I am really excited to see what God is going to do.
7 days till I graduate from CSB. Who knew 4 years was so short, well surely not I! I was sitting with Katie Hansen yesterday at a movie on the mall, surrounded by 1st years, as we found ourself being very envious. I am going to miss CSB/SJU greatly, it has been a great experience and I am grateful for everyone and everything that has happened, both good and bad. I have learned and I have grown. I am a different woman today than I was just four short years ago when I walked into Aurora (my dorm residence) bouncing and anxious. But I am neither better nor worse I am just older, more experienced, I am more loved today and I love more today than I did back then. This is all really beautiful.
Mental Health?? Well yes it is relevant. More specifically my own mental health. I have been slowly coming clean to the world that I struggle with anxiety and depression. It is a humbling experience to share one's struggles with the world. But humble is a good thing. I need it. As all the changes are occurring and as I find myself unsure of the next step, I have found myself struggling to keep my head above water. I have a soft heart and a sensitive sprit. We are the ones who struggle. I will spare you all the details, but I will share that the past few months have been some of the hardest months I have faced. I am working, and I will overcome, but it has not been easy. The burden the bear isn't all that light, but I know that in all things it is Christ who comforts me and he is the lifter of my head.
Those of you waiting for shoutouts- I will get you next time :) Gotta keep you reading!
Your anxious dreamer- for now!
Kelly
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